Is this the end of something sweet?

How can a sweet friendship turn to sour within seconds? What they say is true, when the eye of a sword is sharp and fatal, the eye of a pen is much sharper, more fatal and indisputably destructive. A sword may leave you bleeding bur words written by a pen cut you soooo deeply and brutally and the scar left behind is so visible and no cosmetic surgery will be able to cover it. Furthermore, it usually costs u someone dear to you...

Eventhough we have known each other for about 5 years, I knew all along that we dont really know each other very well. We used to be very very close where almost every night and day we would contact one another. Still, we only managed to know the outside and very little of the inside. But what we knew was already enough for us to have a respectable friendship. We always made it a point that whenever I went to KL, we would try to dine together, sometimes bowl with other friends The same routine when he came to my place. Sometimes we chatted online which we didnt do very often because he was always in his busy mode.

It was one of those days when I went online and he was there too - still in his busy mode. But he said hi first and we chatted warmly. He apologised for not contacting me when I was in KL a few days before. He thought I was already left the city. We then set a date for our dinner for I would be going down to KL during xmas break. He was nice enough to let me pick the restaurant. The date was set and I couldnt wait for it. The next day I saw him online again. It was somewhere around 8pm I think. After office hour. I wanted to ask him about this one particular girl who was our mutual friend on FB and about a movie that he watched the previous night. I did and that proved to be the biggest mistake! He got pissed off in the mid of the conversation. I wasnt quite sure why. He said that I was wasting his time and shut me up by logging off! I was flabbergasted! He had never ill-treated me before. I was perplexed.. baffled.. utterly confused! What was wrong with the question? Or could it be the way I asked him? But even if he thought that I was wasting his time, he could just say that he had to go. No need to be rude to me!!! He was rude alright! I dont deserve to be treated that way!

So, that was the last time we heard of each other. The dinner did not happen. I always see him online and he sees me. But that is all. I lost him just like that! Just like that..... I'm sad... I wish I could turn back the clock... But that is impossible, I know... We are both egoistic people. I believe he is waiting for me to make the first move and apologise as I am waiting for him to do the same. When will this end? How do we resume the abandoned friendship? This is very sad...

What the heck???

I dont know why some people bother to ask for opinion and get mad when the opinion given differs from theirs! I mean, if you want me to agree with what you are saying why dont you just say something like this- 'I think that this should be done like this by using this plan; what do you think? p/s: you must agree with me'.. It would be much easier for I would just shut up or ignore the question if I have opposite view in mind!

My cousin ni kan, asked me about the usage of Allah by other religions. He asked, why the fuss? He believed that since it is said that Allah is the God for every human and soul on earth, it should be allowed to be used by any religions. At the end of his text (yup. sms je..) he wrote, 'what is your opinion?' Then I gave him my 50cent worth of view. About how the word 'Allah' would be wrongly used and abused and how the future generation would be confused and bla bla bla.. Panjang lebar juga le aku jawab.. sampai hantar 3 sms, ok? Then my cousin replied. 'I agree with you but, dalam Zabur dan kitab sebelumnya Allah menyatakan bahawa Tuhan adalah Allah. Adakah kita nak menafikan ayat2 Allah itu?' My replied was simple. I told him that we have to look at the context of the word Allah used by other religions specifically Christian. When they use Allah, they refer to Jesus. When we use Allah we refer to Allah the Almighty. What's happening in Msia now is the muslims againts the usage of Allah by the christians because of the different context.

In the end he replied, 'Moga2 kita semua mendapat hidayah dariNya dan tidak membuat tanggapan berdasarkan akal semata-mata'. Menyindir siuutttttt!!!! Kurrreeng betul! You asked for my opinion, and I gave it to you, so deal with it! Tak perlu la nak menyindir! Hampess betul! Ikutkan hati nak je terus berdialog dgn dia... Tapi kang jadi perang saudara pulak! Ish, geram!!!

Ada sorang kawan aku ni pun sama gak.. Dia ada blog, dan ada ruangan comment di blog dia.. Masa mula2 dulu dia invite aku mengomen di blognya. Dah lama gak aku tak mengomen. Then a few days back, he wrote about Malays. And I commented. He got pissed off with my comment and made my comment as his next entry as disagreeing with what I had written. He thought that I was against him and his view on Malays when I actually agreed with him and would felt what he felt if such incident happened to me. The only thing was, to me, Malays may have negative elements, but whether I like it or not they are my bangsa and I cant run away from the fact that I am Malay. Dia ingat aku nak tutup kesalahan2 dan kelemahan2 orang melayu. Pastu dia kaitkan dgn Islam pulak.. WTH??? Pastu aku malas dah nak komen.. lantak dia la.. Kalau dia tak mau pendapat yang berlainan dari dia, tulis la kat blog dia tu 'All comments should be agreeable to mine!'... Stoooooopid!!!!

Sape nak disagree dgn aku, silakanlah.. it's a free blogging world!

am baaaaaaaack and new year is hereeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Wow!!!!! 2 bulan setengah aku tak menulis apa2 kat sini! entah nape tetiba takde mood plus takde masa plus takde inspirasi! tapi, hari ni sempena tahun baru masehi ni, aku ingat nak start menulis balik la... harap2 aku ada banyak masa dan inspirasi! hehe..

Cakap pasal inspirasi, sumber inspirasi aku yg utama dah balik dari mengerjakan haji. Ya, HT sekarang dah bergelar Haji ***... Yang bestnye, hari pertama dia sampai di bumi mekah, dia terus sms aku bertanya khabar... ahh, bahagianya! hik hik hik.. Masa banjir kilat melanda Jeddah, aku sms dia plak bertanya khabar..risau gak aku! Alhamdulillah dia ok.. Selesai je dia mengerjakan rukun haji, kami bersms sekali lagi. Bila ku minta dia mms gambar kepala botak dia tu, terus dia buat video call. Tapi hp aku mengong hari tu.. tak bleh receive atau buat video call! hampesss! tapi aku sembat berlawak nak panggil dia Pak Haji. Dengan selambanya dia jawab 'panggail Abang Haji la.. baru sedap sikit'.. muahahahahahha.. i loiiiiike!!!!

Abah & mak pun g haji juga. 55 hari aku tinggal sorang2 kat umah. Pagi petang siang malam aku asyik makan rooooooooooti je! itulah makanan ruji aku! bukan tak mau masak, tapi rugi la masak makan sorang2! tapi, walaupun makan tak 'semewah' masa mak ada, aku tetap maintain 'sihat'. cuma tang hidung je yg nampak kurus skit! hahahahahahahaha... Now, lega dan seronok giler mak dan abah dah balik.. Rasa bernyawa semula! See, how precious they are to me! ;D

Petang ni ada jamuan kat umah Kak Mawar. Jamuan ni all in one - sempena berakhirnya 2009 dan bermulanya 2010, sempena berakhirnya cuti yg panjang dan bermulanya keje tukang cuci di tahun baru, sempena birthday Kak Editor dan sempena nak makan2 dan jumpa kengkawan lama! Tak kira la sempena apa pun, janji ada makan! hahahhaahhaha

Papepun, HAPPY FANTABULOUS 2010!

Lovely Lunch with My Love

I didn't plan it. Honest! I have been in KL for 3 days now.. never once I called him.. I wanted to, but somehow my fingers refused to dial his number.

So, this morning we were both in the same hall.. A huge hall. My place was among the front rows. He was at the back, on the second floor. I had my hp in my hand and was listening to Mr. President giving his speech. Suddenly, it buzzed. A message came. From HT. Immediately a smile formed on my face.

HT : U duduk mana?

Happy Me : Kat depan ni ha... betul2 depan bos.. Just a few rows behind the VIPs

HT : Yelah, orang penting..

Happy Me : Penting apanye? Nak ngelat pun tak bleh.. u duduk kat mana?

HT : Kat belakang ni ha.. senang nak cabut! Tidor mana?

Happy Me : Dapat bilik kat Seri Pac tapi for the time being lepak umah my sis. U?

HT : I balik umah... Tak duduk hotel.

Happy Me : Since I dah kat KL ni, bila nak belanja makan?

HT : Ish, orang Kewangan la kena belanja..

Happy Me : No hal... I ok je.. tapi u la... bz selalu.. bila nak makan? lunch? tea? dinner? supper?

HT : Sekarang pun dah lapar.. Kita lunch lepas ni kat The Mall?

Happy Me : Ok, set!

Waduh gumbiranya tak terkata! Tak sabar nak jumpa HT! But right after that, another scandal sent me a text asking me to have lunch with him. I said sorry but scheduled him for dinner instead! hahahaha.. so slutty of me! hahahahaha

When the time came, I waited in front of The Mall. I was wearing white kurung with pink sarong and a matching pink tudung. Then I saw him walking calmly and looked heartbreakingly handsome in his shiny brown baju melayu, a matching expensive songket and a songkok. We were rightly dressed for akad nikah! Kalaulah ada tok kadi waktu tu! Dah tentu aku tarik je mana2 bangla or nepal kat depan The Mall tu jadi saksi kami! huhu! =D

We were both starving. I wanted to eat rice but we needed the privacy. So, instead of going to the food court, we went to Pizza Hut. Anything, as long as I'm having the meal with him. We talked and talked. He told me of his dissatisfaction on things regarding work and I shared his frustration. Then he advised me on things.. This is what I like most about him.. He's wise and has gone through quite a lot. He always uses his experiences to guide me in doing things in my life. While we were having lunch, my eldest sister came. She knew I was having lunch with HT but she needed to pass me some things. I introduced HT to her before she made her way out. Of course, later she told me that she found HT good looking and was hoping he would be a part of our family... Wishful thinking, sis! I want that too, but somehow............

Anyway, lunch with HT was the highlight of the day! It was the best thing that happend that day because right after that precious lunch, I was hit by bad luck.... Bad things happened one after another till the clock struck 12 midnight.

HT, I really enjoyed our lunch... Next time kita pegi jumpa tok kadi pula ye? hehehehe...

cuci, basuh, cuci, basuh..

Wah... Minggu yang sangat bz.. Terlampau bz dan hectic sampai period keluar tak henti-henti! Rasa macam dah berminggu-minggu tak jumpa anak cucian! entah macam mana la mereka buat ujian cucian tu ye...?

Sepanjang minggu ni pula aku kena ke KL... Menghadiri perjumpaan tukang-tukang basuh satu malaya... Banyak perkara yang berlaku.. Memang seronok dapat berjumpa dengan kawan-kawan basuhan.. Ada yang masih ingat pada aku.. Ada juga yang buat tak tahu... Tapi, ada aku kesah??? huahuahua... Ada perbincangan yang menarik untuk mempertingkatkan kaedah basuhan dan menarik lebih minat untuk semua menjadi ahli basuhan... Dalam berbincang ada juga lawak jenaka yang 18 SX.. Tersipu2 gak aku ni.. Mana idaknya, aku ni kan masih suci lagi... Innocent la konon! huhu! Tapi ada gak perbincangan yang membosankan serta memalukan dan tak masuk akal! Masa ni aku angkat kaki berjumpa dengan skandal2 aku! hahahahaha

Sebenarnya tak sabar nak balik ke tempat cucian dan menjadi tukang cuci.. Aku ni hidup dua alam.. Pagi ke petang jadi tukang cuci... Petang ke pagi jadi tukang basuh... Dua-dua memang kerja mulia, tapi kerja yang paling orang sekeliling tak hargai... Sabor je la.. Janji aku ikhlas dan tawaduk.. insyaallah...

Aku yakin kawan2 tukang cuci semuanya merindui aku! hehehe...