lean on me

I had never watched 'LEAN ON ME'. I knew it was a good movie. Well, almost all Morgan Freeman's movies are good and worth watching. So, today, while I was browsing the movies on Astro, I saw that particular title queeing up for the next show. Got all my house chores done and then I was ready in front of the tube.

It was a very moving story. I was overwhelmed by the determination of Mr. Joe Clark (Freeman) as the principal to change his school and his students for the betterment no matter what the obstacles were. I cried watching the movie, boleh??? hehe.. semakin tua semakin vulnerable and touchy lah... hmm....

Anyway, below is one of Clark's brilliant speeches which I got from one of the websites:

Next time it may be you. If you do no better than they did (referring to the students cum gangsters and drug dealers who were just being expelled) , next time it will be you. They said this school was dead, like the cemetery it's built on. But we call our East Side teams "ghosts," don't we? And what are ghosts? Ghosts are spirits that rise from the dead. I want you to be my ghosts. You are going to lead our resurrection by defying the expectation that all of us are doomed to failure.

My motto is simple: If you do not succeed in life, I don't want you to blame your parents. I don't want you to blame the white man! I want you to blame yourselves! The responsibility is yours!!In two weeks we have a practice exam and a minimum basic skills test on April 13th. That's a hundred and ten school days from now. But it's not just about those test scores. If you do not have these basic skills, you will find yourselves locked out! Locked out of that American Dream that you see advertised on TV -- that they tell you is so easy to get.

You are here for one reason -- one reason only: To learn, to work for what you want. The alternative is to waste your time and to fall into the trap of crime, drugs, and death. Does everyone understand that? Do all of you understand me?! Then welcome to the new East Side High!

BURST in laughter...

I woke up feeling good and grateful to Allah Taala knowing that I can still feel my heart beating. After 34 years, I am still alive and kicking. Syukur alhamdulillah.

I drove to my work place with a huntch that it was going to be a great day. And I was right. I was in charge of assembling anak-anak cucian for this week. Lady Boss was present and gave a short speech to anak-anak cucian. When I asked them to disperse, they gave me a surprise by singing 'Happy Birthday'! I was speechless. Didn't see it coming. I was touched and overwhelmed. Lady Boss was surprised too. She wished me and said I was lucky to have a nice surprise from our anak-anak cucian.

So, it was a good start for my 'burst'day.. Everybody kept on wishing me the whole day and I continuously receiving wishes through sms from family and friends. I got 5 slices of cheesecake, an organiser, boxes of chocolate from anak-anak cucian and kawan-kawan cucian. I laughed the whole day. There was always something that made me laugh. I was feeling great. When I got to Facebook, I recieved numerous birthday wishes from friends. I spent hours thanking each one of them.

I just got back from dinner with two close friends and their kids. They are husband and wife. I have known the husband all my life and he is just like a brother to me. I became friend with the wife about 9 years ago and since then we became good friends. I introduced both of them to one another and now they are happily married. Alhamdulillah. Anyway, they took me to this new Thai restaurant. They ordered a lot of food, macam nak bagi makan satu kampung! The food was just ok la, but the presentation was superb.

So, that was how I spent my birthday. Simple. No celebration. Just dinner. But I felt good.. and that is all that matters... ;D

birthday eve

Esok birthday aku.. tapi kena keje... memang tak patut! Hampezz tahap gaban! Tadi keluar dinner with a dear friend.. No, no it was not HT, though I wish it was him instead! It was a lady friend whose birthday is today- 26 June. For years we tried to celebrate our birthdays together, but never had the chance to do so.. Entah macam mana malam ni tetiba ada rezeki plak nak keluar sama-sama. Just the two of us. We had a nice dinner at Secret Recipe je... Since we had not been able to menganyam ketupat (bergosip a.k.a mengumpat) for quite some time (sebab masing-masing busy dan jarang dapat jumpa) so, tonite we talked and talked and talked sampai nak tutup le Secret Recipe tu! We were the last ones to leave the restaurant, boleh? hehe... Anyway, Happy Burstday KM!

Al- fatihah

Sebentar tadi baru je terima panggilan telefon dari seorang sahabat.. Abahnya yang menderita barah hati akhirnya menghembuskan nafas terakhir pada jam 6.50 petang. Pakcik Z dah 2-3 bulan terlantar di atas katil... 3-4 kali juga aku melawatnya.. Setiap kali pun menitis air mata melihat keadaannya yang semakin teruk saban hari.. Kali terakhir melawatnya perutnya dah semakin kembung kerana hati yang bengkak.. mata dan seluruh badan dah bertukar warna kuning.. Kepada sahabat aku tu, aku nasihatkan supaya bersedia untuk menghadapi sebarang kemungkinan, kerana melihatkan keadaannya aku tau, dah tak lama dah untuk dia pergi menemui penciptanya. Senang diucapkan dengan kata-kata, tetapi yang menanggungnya saja yang tahu kesedihan menyedari masa yang ada semakin berlalu pergi..

Pakcik Z aku anggap macam bapa aku sendiri.. Dia banyak membantu dan menyokong aku dan kawan-kawan dalam kerja amal kami. Dia seorang yang ceria dan selalu berjenaka. Seorang yang sangat disenangi dan sentiasa tersenyum. Kerana itu kehilangannya dirasai dan diratapi. Namun daripada dia terus menderita sakit, adalah baik dihentikan kesengsaraannya. Apa sahaja yang terbaik untuk Pakcik Z.

Sahabat aku ini sangat rapat dan manja dengan abahnya ini. Selalu nyanyi karaoke di rumah bersama.. selalu dia mengikut abahnya ke kenduri-kenduri kawin sebab abahnya ada buat bisnes PA system dan karaoke kecil-kecilan. Memang susah untuk dia berpisah dengan abahnya. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi mata memikul. Tambahan pula abahnya pergi pada Hari Bapa Sedunia. Memang tragis. Aku doakan roh allahyarham Pakcik Z dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang beriman. Aku doakan sahabat aku ni dan ahli keluarganya dapat mengharungi hari-hari muka dengan penuh ketabahan da kekuatan. Aku dokan yang terbaik untuk semua. Amin.

untuk HT

It's HT's birthday today... No, I did not celebrate with him.. I did not throw a big, fancy party for him.. I did not arrange a romantic candle-lit diner with him.. I did not buy him an expensive gift.. I wanted to do all those.. I would love to do all those! If I could, I would! But I am not in the position to do so... All I did was wishing him Happy Birthday through the phone. He thanked me politely. Then I said 'Moga panjang umur, murah rezeki dan bertambah hensem lagi'. He laughed sheepishly. And I wished him to have a great day ahead. That was all... The phone call was short. sweet and simple... I shouldn't ask for more, but I want more! I want MORE! However, for the time being, I just have to be happy with how things are...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HT... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG.. ;D

hari ini kau datang lagi.... ;D

Hari ini aku dah catatkan dalam diari aku (yang sebenarnya tak wujud, hehe..) untuk bertemu dengan orang-orang penting di Putrajaya. Walaupun aku ni kerja tukang cuci aje, sebagai tuan tanah Malaysia ni, aku dah hak untuk bertemu orang-orang berpangkat besau kat sana. Aku perlulah tahu dan minta hak aku kan? Aku plan mende ni sejak minggu lepas lagi.

Pada asalnya ada 12 orang dalam rombongan kami. First stop was MOY. We reached there aopund 11.45am, 45 minutes earlier than our appoinment, so, lepak dan minum dulu kat kafeterianya. Then we went up to the ** floor. Aku dianggap orang penting la dalam rombongan kitorang ni sebab aku yang initiate dan merancang segala-galanya.. echeh! Rupanya orang penting yang kami jumpa ni badannya je kecil tapi berwawasan besar! Suka bercakap plak tu.. Nasib baik comel! hahaha... We had a good discussion on ****. By 2pm, the discussion was getting more heated. Aku dah resah because our next appoinment was at 2.3opm dekat MOE pulak! Terus aku amik handphone and reschedule appoinment ke 3pm. Aah, nasib baik orang MOE ok and tak marah.. Still, there goes my first impression with them.

After lunch at MOY, bergegas kitorang ke MOE. On the way ke sana, sorang kawan aku ni tanya samada aku boleh tolong fix kan date untuk dia berjumpa HT. Dia perlukan bantuan HT untuk program yang dia nak buat. Actually, beberapa kawan searena denagn aku ni, dah pernah berjumpa HT. Oleh kerana HT memegang jawatan penting dalam ***, maka dia banyak membantu kawan2 aku dalam merealisasikan impian mereka.. err.. sikit lebih kurang la.. hehe... Mendengar request kawan aku ni, aku pun tak buang masa dan terus call HT - bagaikan orang ngantuk disorongkan bantal!. He picked up the phone. Aku pun cerita kat dia yg aku dan kekawan ada di Putrajaya dan kami ada beberapa appoinment di sini. So, happen dia pun nak berjumpa dengan orang besau MOF, who was my third appoinment! So, kami pun berjanji untuk berjumpa di Shangri-La Hotel 5 petang nanti! Aku dah di awang-awangan dah! Dah melayang-layang! Another opportunity to see him!

CUT!!! CUT!!!

Ok, ok, back to my second appoinment - MOE. This is my favourite place and the guy that we met was comel bangattttt! (tapi HT tetap di hatiku). Aku dah beberapa kali bercakap dalam phone dan bersms dgn mamat MOE ni, tapi inilah kali pertama kitorang jumpa. He turned out to be very warm, friendly and kelakar! Rupanya, he is MY AGE! Patut la kitorang ada same wavelength! And he was born in JUNE jugak! HT pun lahir bulan JUNE jugak macam aku!!! Tak syak lagi, rakyat yang lahir bulan JUNE ni memang comel, baik, friendly dan menarik!!! hehehe..... Ok, bukan tu aje, aku turut terkejut badak, bila dapat tahu yang mamat MOE ni belajar satu universiti dengan aku dan tinggal di kampus yang sama! Malah kami grad pada tahun yang sama!!! (tukang cuci pun kena ada degree tau!) Ish, macam manalah aku boleh tak jumpa dia dulu ek? ish..ish..ish.. Anyway, memang best sembang dan berbincang dengan mamat MOE ni.. He was very helpful la, banyak keje2 kitorang yang boleh dipermudahkan lepas ni... Insyaallah...

We left MOE and headed to Shangri-La hotel to meet Mr.$ from MOF. My heart was already berdegup kencang... Tak lama lagi aku akan berjumpa kekasih gelapku! huhu! gatazzzzzzzzzzzzz!

Mr.$ was a bit late. We ordered food. We were waiting for our chocolate cake, hawaiian pizza, banana split, fries, mushroom soup, ais kacang and teh tarik to arrive, when I saw him! My HT! Tersenyum lebar aku. Terus dia datang dan duduk disebelah aku. Bergegar dunia batinku!!!! Aku kenalkan kawan2 aku pada dia. Ada yang dia dah jumpa (dia tak berapa ingat pun... dia ingat aku je! huhu!!!), ada yang baru pertama kali jumpa. Dia bawa seorang kawan dengan dia, tapi tak begitu penting! hehe.. Dan kami bersembang dan minum dan berbincang. Memandangkan aku datang kerana soal kerja, maka aku jadi profesional. Aku sembunyikan kegedikan aku. Simpan kuku beb! Padahalnya, aku dah dekat sangat untuk memeluk dia! haha... Anyway, bebarapa kawan aku tu membuat beberapa permintaan pada dia.. Semua dia cakap ok.. Takde satu pun dia cakap tak boleh.. Aaahh... My kind prince... Camne lah nak fall out of love dengan HT kalau dia sentiasa charming macam ni?

Kami kemudiannya terpaksa bertukar meja, sebab tak muat untuk Mr.$ nanti. Masa tukar meja ni lah, aku dan HT terpisah. Dia di sebelah sana dan aku disebelah sini.. Tapi mata sentiasa bertautan.. Aku bukan nak perasan, tapi ada beberapa kali I caught him looking at me! Adus, bahagianya!!! Bila pizza datang, dia tolong potongkan untuk semua. The biggest portion dia bagi kat aku. Aku menolak manja..

Aku manja : HT, I nak yang kecik tu je la...

HT : Alaa.. U kan nak balik ipoh kejap lagi.. nanti U lapar pulak dalam perjalanan.. (how sweet!!)

Aku manja : Alaa.. kalau I lapar nanti, I singgahlah kat Rawang, makan kat umah U, boleh? (see, gedik tak aku???)

HT : Boleh... (tersenyum lebar)

Tapi, kemudiannya Mr.$ sampai, so aku bagi the big portion of pizza tu to him and I took the smallest one.. Then the pep talk began... Macam aku cakap tadi, acapkali juga aku berlaga mata dengan HT. Dan setiap kali, kami samada angkat kening atau tersenyum manja to each other. I was in cloud 9 again!!! Selesai perbincangan, HT panggil waiter, dia yang belanja petang tu. How generous of him! And I was falling deeper and deeper for him! We then went up to the lobby. We shook hand with everybody. Seingat aku, aku sangat jarang bersentuhan dengan HT, so this time, I seized the golden opprtunity. I went to him and presented my hand. He took it and we shook hands. It was brief but enough to lift me up to the sky! I got into the car and waved to him. He waved and smiled sheepishly. Aku? Terus tersenyum sehingga kami keluar dari Putrajaya.

Aahh, menariknya hari ni... Bahagianya hari ini... Gembiranya hari ini...

Moga perancangan bersama MOY diberkati..

Moga beroleh manafaat dan kejayaan bersama MOE..

Moga MOF menghasilkan rezeki..

Moga ada jodoh untuk bertemu HT lagi..

Ameen...

my Sonnet 18

Tanggal 4 Jun 2009 yang lalu....

Sudah 3 hari aku di KL.. Namun, aku masih belum memaklumkan HT yang aku sudah tiba di hutan batu tu... Bukannya tak mahu.. tapi takut kalau tak dapat berjumpa juga kali ni, mesti aku frust giler... Hari ini aku dah berjanji untuk berjumpa dengan Sugar, Mr. Vogue dan Huggies. Sebab aku tak bawa kereta (lagipun aku bukannya tau sangat jalan2 kat KL ni..), aku naik tren je dan Sugar akan ambil aku di stesen yang dah kitorang pilih. Dan sewaktu menunggu Sugar ambil aku itulah aku tanpa berfikir panjang terus mengsms HT:-

Salam. HT, cuba teka I kat mana? ;)

Tak sampai 39 saat... 'so, I wont hesitate. No more, no more, I'm yours' peeerrrggghhhhhh! HT call aku!!! Terus tersenyum lebar aku...

Aku manja : Hello, Assalamualaikum.

HT : W'salam. U kat KL ye?

Aku manja : A'ah.. kat KL...

HT : U kat mana ni?

Aku manja : Kat *****. Tengah tunggu my friend.

HT : U dah makan dah?

Aku manja : Err... makan tengahari belum la..

HT : Jom makan dengan I kat Times Square?

Aku manja : Oh, Ok. Tapi, I dengan kawan I. Nanti I tanya dia dulu ek..
HT : Kawan u tu boyfriend u ke?

Aku manja : tak la.. Kawan I perempuan. Lagipun, U kan boyfriend I..? (top scorer in flirtation lines!!! huhu!)

HT : tertawa comel

Aku manja : Ok, I tanya kawan I dulu, pastu I get back to U ya?

HT : Ok.

And of course when I asked Sugar she said YES! So, aku pun call balik abang HTku dan kami janji untuk berjumpa di Times Square in half an hour.

Sewaktu naik escalator ke tingkat 3 Times Square itulah aku ternampak dia sedang sabar menunggu. Mata bertaut, hati tertusuk dan bibir tersenyum. Aku melambai manja kepadanya. Gosh, he looked so damn hot in his yellow shirt, gold necktie, dark pants and spikey hair. Boy, he looked so delicious that I wanted to forget about lunch and eat him instead!

I said 'hi' and introduced Sugar to him. He asked whether it was ok if we have steamboat for lunch. Aaaahh HT, dont you know, meeting you is more important and tempting than food? I said OK of course, and then, three of us walked to the restaurant. I dont really like his choice of the dining place actually, but as i said earlier being with him makes everything looks great! Aawww......

The lunch was splendid. We talked about work, politics and ntah la apa lagi... I didnt eat much.. I mean, I could have eaten more but I did not.. Segan siuuttttt! hahaha... Tapi, tanpa rasa malu aku tangkap gambar dia guna handphone, boleh? Adus, tahap kegatalan yang melampau dah aku ni!! Aaaaarrggggghhh... Mengapalah lambat aku berjumpa dengan dia? Sekarang dia dah berpunya dan aku...? Gigit jari ajelah.... The flirtation is going no where, I know.. but I just can't help it! I like him! God, I want him!!!! I'm sick, I know.....!

Tak tahulah macam mana nak decribe perasaan aku semasa lunch tu.. Bercampur baur! Gembira, dah tentulah kan? Setelah sekian lama, baru kali ni dapat bersama walau pun 2 jam aje... Di awang-awangan tu confirm! Melayang-layang di awanan cinta! Rasa teruja nak peluk dia pun ada gak, tapi aku control, berusaha menjaga air muka... Tapi..., sedih pun ada sebab tak dapat memiliki. Bersalah pun ya juga kerana macam menganiaya kaum sendiri. Rasa pasrah dah pasti atas takdir Illahi... hmmmm......

HT akhirnya memanggil waiter untuk bil meja kami. Dia perlu kembali ke pejabat dan aku dan Sugar meneruskan misi becopa cobana kami.. Kami berjalan ke escalator. Sugar, being a fantastic friend, pushed me to walk side by side with him. She tried to be invisible behind us. The parting part was brief. I wanted to hold his hand. Wanted to tell him how much I enjoyed seeing and being with him. Wanted to confess to him that he meant a lot to me. Instead, both Sugar and I just thanked him for lunch, we smiled to each other then he walked away leaving me feeling bereft.

Bila lagi boleh jumpa ya? Bila lagi boleh bersama ya? Bila lagi......?

I was sad seeing him diappeared in the crowd but I was glad I sent him the text that led us to a steamy lunch with unbearable temptations!

HT darling, I am no Shakespeare but you are definitely my Sonnet 18!

Syoknye cuti!!!

It was a nice break... no, no.. let me rephrase that. It was a syok one!

It was good to finally be able to spend time with my nephew and nieces. We didn't do much actually.. Just went for breakfast and lunches (I had my dinners with friends), watched tv together, did grocery shopping at the hypermarket and had little chats in the car on their way to their extra classes in school and tuition classes. Enough to pull us a little bit closer!

I enjoyed my dinner with Mr. Lawyer who just got back from South Africa. Yup, he went to Cape Town and Johannesburg. Not only my eyes turned green when he told me 'bout his stupendous trip to those places, I actually could feel my whole body turning to that colour! I was extremely jealous and mad! Jealous becoz he went there, and mad becoz he didn't tell me in the first place. I got to know about it from Facebook!!! Some friend he is!

My outing with Sugar was fun! Even though our initial plan, which was to visit Huggies (the one who just lost his leg due to diabetes) was cancelled at the very last minute, we still enjoyed every ticking from 12.03pm t0 err.. 8.57pm! And the most fantabulous thing is, our outing started with a steamy lunch with MY HT! Oh yes, I met HT and Sugar got to meet him too! Gosh, he was looking extremely handsome and charming and... CHUPPP!!! Will tell u guys more about my dream-come-true lunch in the next entry ya! *wink*. Anyway, Sugar and I had our little sweaty adventure in Times Square - we forgot where we parked the car in that huge building! Actually it was my fault for I led Sugar to the wrong escalator.. Well, what can I say... I was busy talking to HT that I got confused with the escalator! hehe.. Sorry, Sugar! But it was a good exercise wasn't it? We managed to burn some calories! hehehe... After the wonderful lunch, we hit Isetan in KLCC and Sugar cum Ms. Shopaholic bought herself two pairs of sexy shoes and 3 pairs of gorgeous tops and one elegant long skirt! Me? I was happy with just one nice top. But the trying part was really fun.. I believe we spent nearly TWO hours trying out ALMOST ALL (a bit exaggerating here, I know.. hehe) the outfits there! The salesgirl was very sweet and honest in giving her opinion on our fitting session. I nearly bought the same long skirt that Sugar bought, but the sweet salesgirl said "akak kata akak dah ada skirt hitam kan? so, tak payah la beli yang ni.." Boleh? Kalau bos u dengar dik, abis u...!!! But, thanks dik! Jimat duit akak! huhu! During dinner we were joined by Mr. Vogue. He updated us on Huggies' condition. Hmm... We really sympathised with him... Hope he's doing much better now... And to Sugar, WE SHOULD DO THIS AGAIN!!!

I managed to have a quick breakfast with Honey and her cute son at Dome, The Curve. We had tea together a few days before when she came to Ipoh. We didn't eat much but more on talking. And the same happened during breakfast. We talked and talked and talked.. hehe.. Girls are indisputably good at that!

On my last night in KL, my cousin took me out for a quick dinner and a movie. We ate Nando's quarter chicken, fries and salad in 11minutes je, boleh?!!! Well, that was because Terminator: Salvation was waiting for us! We left home quite early but we got stuck in traffic (KL, tau je la kan?), PLUS, we took quite some time finding the cinema in that gargantuan Pavilion! (Nape la diorang ni suka buat shopping complexes besar-besar sangat? penat berjalan la woi!!!). I must admit that I wasn't thrilled when my cousin told me that we were to watch Connor and his friends fighting some machines, but the movie turned out to be good! Rasa macam tak berkelip je mata ni tengok citer tu... Those who haven't watched it, better book the tickets now!!! Highly recommended!

So, that was pretty much what I did during my 5 days stay in KL. Hope I could do it more often! With more friends hopefully!!! ;D