my Sonnet 18

Tanggal 4 Jun 2009 yang lalu....

Sudah 3 hari aku di KL.. Namun, aku masih belum memaklumkan HT yang aku sudah tiba di hutan batu tu... Bukannya tak mahu.. tapi takut kalau tak dapat berjumpa juga kali ni, mesti aku frust giler... Hari ini aku dah berjanji untuk berjumpa dengan Sugar, Mr. Vogue dan Huggies. Sebab aku tak bawa kereta (lagipun aku bukannya tau sangat jalan2 kat KL ni..), aku naik tren je dan Sugar akan ambil aku di stesen yang dah kitorang pilih. Dan sewaktu menunggu Sugar ambil aku itulah aku tanpa berfikir panjang terus mengsms HT:-

Salam. HT, cuba teka I kat mana? ;)

Tak sampai 39 saat... 'so, I wont hesitate. No more, no more, I'm yours' peeerrrggghhhhhh! HT call aku!!! Terus tersenyum lebar aku...

Aku manja : Hello, Assalamualaikum.

HT : W'salam. U kat KL ye?

Aku manja : A'ah.. kat KL...

HT : U kat mana ni?

Aku manja : Kat *****. Tengah tunggu my friend.

HT : U dah makan dah?

Aku manja : Err... makan tengahari belum la..

HT : Jom makan dengan I kat Times Square?

Aku manja : Oh, Ok. Tapi, I dengan kawan I. Nanti I tanya dia dulu ek..
HT : Kawan u tu boyfriend u ke?

Aku manja : tak la.. Kawan I perempuan. Lagipun, U kan boyfriend I..? (top scorer in flirtation lines!!! huhu!)

HT : tertawa comel

Aku manja : Ok, I tanya kawan I dulu, pastu I get back to U ya?

HT : Ok.

And of course when I asked Sugar she said YES! So, aku pun call balik abang HTku dan kami janji untuk berjumpa di Times Square in half an hour.

Sewaktu naik escalator ke tingkat 3 Times Square itulah aku ternampak dia sedang sabar menunggu. Mata bertaut, hati tertusuk dan bibir tersenyum. Aku melambai manja kepadanya. Gosh, he looked so damn hot in his yellow shirt, gold necktie, dark pants and spikey hair. Boy, he looked so delicious that I wanted to forget about lunch and eat him instead!

I said 'hi' and introduced Sugar to him. He asked whether it was ok if we have steamboat for lunch. Aaaahh HT, dont you know, meeting you is more important and tempting than food? I said OK of course, and then, three of us walked to the restaurant. I dont really like his choice of the dining place actually, but as i said earlier being with him makes everything looks great! Aawww......

The lunch was splendid. We talked about work, politics and ntah la apa lagi... I didnt eat much.. I mean, I could have eaten more but I did not.. Segan siuuttttt! hahaha... Tapi, tanpa rasa malu aku tangkap gambar dia guna handphone, boleh? Adus, tahap kegatalan yang melampau dah aku ni!! Aaaaarrggggghhh... Mengapalah lambat aku berjumpa dengan dia? Sekarang dia dah berpunya dan aku...? Gigit jari ajelah.... The flirtation is going no where, I know.. but I just can't help it! I like him! God, I want him!!!! I'm sick, I know.....!

Tak tahulah macam mana nak decribe perasaan aku semasa lunch tu.. Bercampur baur! Gembira, dah tentulah kan? Setelah sekian lama, baru kali ni dapat bersama walau pun 2 jam aje... Di awang-awangan tu confirm! Melayang-layang di awanan cinta! Rasa teruja nak peluk dia pun ada gak, tapi aku control, berusaha menjaga air muka... Tapi..., sedih pun ada sebab tak dapat memiliki. Bersalah pun ya juga kerana macam menganiaya kaum sendiri. Rasa pasrah dah pasti atas takdir Illahi... hmmmm......

HT akhirnya memanggil waiter untuk bil meja kami. Dia perlu kembali ke pejabat dan aku dan Sugar meneruskan misi becopa cobana kami.. Kami berjalan ke escalator. Sugar, being a fantastic friend, pushed me to walk side by side with him. She tried to be invisible behind us. The parting part was brief. I wanted to hold his hand. Wanted to tell him how much I enjoyed seeing and being with him. Wanted to confess to him that he meant a lot to me. Instead, both Sugar and I just thanked him for lunch, we smiled to each other then he walked away leaving me feeling bereft.

Bila lagi boleh jumpa ya? Bila lagi boleh bersama ya? Bila lagi......?

I was sad seeing him diappeared in the crowd but I was glad I sent him the text that led us to a steamy lunch with unbearable temptations!

HT darling, I am no Shakespeare but you are definitely my Sonnet 18!