Alhamdulillah everything went well today... Walaupun ada a few hiccups in the programme, they were minor and subtle that just a handful of guests noticed them.
The day started with the important breakfast with the BIG shot which turned out to be warm and meaningful. Then I rushed to the meeting hall for the rehearsal. In between rehearsal and last minute patching up preparation, I managed to write my speech. At first I planned to do it without a written script. I tried to speak from my heart, but I couldnt. I usually fail to give an impromptu speech in front of my boss, and knowing HT would be there, had just made it worse!
HT came around 3.15pm. My jaw dropped when he walked out of the lift. He looked stunningly good looking in his casual batik that wrapped up his tough body just nicely. His tall figure filled the room. He looked straight at me and I smiled broadly. I hope he didn't see how widen my eyes were and how gatal my smile was when he was approaching me. I said hi and ushered him to the hall. A lot of people had already taken their seats. I showed HT where he was supposed to sit on the stage. Then I went down to wait for my boss. He joined me afterwards. Boss was a bit late and I was freaking out. No, not because he was late, but because I was so damn nervous!!! HT was with me but we didnt say much for there were other people with us. Yup, we are usually like that.. pretending we were acquaintance rather than friends in front of people. Boss finally came and we ushered him to the hall. We took our seat. Boss was in the middle of course and I was on his right. HT was on the far left. After reciting doa and singing the National Anthem, it was my turn to give my speech. Gosh, was I nervous!!! But, surprisingly I was able to hide it and sounded confident. The speech was unexpectedly superb! Boss said so! Well, he didnt say that to my face of course, but he told some of his officers and the words came back to me! I was over the hill! And... HT had his eyes fixed on me the whole 7 minutes of my speech! I hope he was finding it good as well and was impressed with me!
During the refreshment, I was sandwiched by the boss on my right and and HT on my left. I pretended to be cool but inside, my heart was blooming like a field of roses in spring! He casually took my cup and filled it with tea. And I casually took his plate and scooped some fried meehoon onto it. He ate it all, I, on the other hand, just took one karipap. I was still nervous to eat more. And then HT dropped the bombshell! He was going to Japan on Monday! Without me!!! He was not taking me with him! I had told him over and over again how I wanted to go there! With him!! I was sad but I hid it. Menci!!!
He left 10 minutes before boss left. I went back to the hall and resumed my programme. By 7.10pm I was done with everything and was awfully famished. With some friends, I went for dinner. Called HT to know his whereabouts, and found out he was already in his kampung meeting up his family and friends. He promised to call when he got the time. It was already 10pm. He didnt reply my sms nor did he call. I'm sleepy now.. But I'm happy and the memory of this afternoon was playing vividly in my mind. I'm soaring high and higher... at the same time falling deep and deeper.. Is that good?
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